Poem: Finding me amongst the mayhem

Self identity, what does it mean?
Taken for granted, pre-assumed
Until your major beliefs are destroyed
Leaving you in a barren battlefield.

Like being airdropped into a strange town.
Take time to look around.
Find the familiar, find the new,
Make a list – what interests you?

A new coffee shop – same familiar taste.
A new dress shop – different but cool.
Familiar roads, don’t know where they go.
We head out anyway, discovering new.

Lipstick we loved – rediscovered again.
Sense of self worth, constructed anew
The town we knew is long gone.
New cities we found – even more cool.

New identity – Para is me
New look – confidence is me
New sport – Waka ama is me
New belief system – THIS IS ME!

[poem by Melanie Magowan]

#215 Some of my planning and focus tips, plus my racing decision: REVEALED

I have been asked a heck of a lot – how I stay so positive and focussed. Today I drop a few of my strategies in there plus, reveal after a looooooong deliberation – what I have decided to do about return to racing – either as a para- or not as a para.

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#214 The power of positivity

I am often asked how I stay so focused and positive. I will prepare a full comprehensive answer of this in a future post, but today I illustrate just what this has done (and is continuing to do) for my rehab and progress, even over a year on from the initial amputation.

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Re-modelling my life: it aint over yet. (This is massive!)

I have had issues brewing beneath the surface for a few months now, that I have not talked all that much about, but have been quietly quite concerned about. So much so, I have had quite a battle to get back into the system and have the legs looked at again. I now have the answer (which does not surprise me but also does not please me.) I feel like I have said this so many times now that the way I see myself living my future seems to change every few weeks. This is the biggest blow since losing the leg. It has made me re-evaluate my entire plan moving forward.

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